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I’m Julian, Born In Another Galaxy. Visiting Earth For A Short Period Of Time, But Due To Return Back Soon. Fucked Up, I Like It That Way. Learn To Love It. Welcome To My Blog. Some Of The Content Can Be Graphic So Heads Up. I Have To Say This Is More Of A Personal Blog For Myself To Express My Thoughts And Feelings Through Photographs, Writing & Lyrics - Hence Why I Don’t Reblog Or Follow Many People.

I Make A Lot Of Bad Decisions And Tend To Inadvertently Break People. I Therefore Am Very Closed Up For The Benefit Of My Peers. I’m Very Blunt & Honest So If You Want To Know Something, I’m Not The Type That Sugarcoats What I Say. I’ve Never Been Liked By Most People My Entire Life. I’ve Always Felt Different. Not Many People Seem To Understand Me & I Can’t Blame Them, But That’s Just The Way It Is I Guess.

I’m Very Gentle, Shy, Open Minded And Friendly, I’m Not A Nasty Person At All And I Believe In The Saying “If You Have Nothing Nice To Say, Say Nothing At All”, Though If Someone Asks For Your Honest Opinion, You Give It To Them Honest, Sharp And Direct. It’s What’s Best. But Unless Someone Asks, Who Are You To Speak? It’s So Arrogant And Rude And I Am Sick Of People Thinking They’re Close Enough To Me To Be Giving Me Their Opinion Like They Have Known Me My Entire Life. And Let Me Tell You, Very, VERY Few People Are Close To Me, Even My Closest Friends I Don’t Consider Close. That’s Just How Things Are With Me And You Haven’t Even Heard Thunder Till You Hear My Tongue Criticizing You Believe Me, So Don’t Push Me To It.

I’m Very Fussy With Everything, Including People. I’m Possessive Also. I’m Not Stupid And I Really Do Have A Highly Tuned Mind That Knows More Facts Than Most People In This World. I Love To Study And Learn About Everything, Nothing Is Boring. I Have The Ability To Escape Reality And Delve Deep Into My Dreams. Old Feelings, Hazy Memories Everyday. Trying To Find What They Mean. People Ask Me Where I Get My Inspirations From And They Really Are From Those Daydreams.

I Have A Very Odd Connection With Time, I Feel Every Second Going By, I Don’t Like Wasting Even A Second. I Am Always Busy. If I Could Tell Everyone Something About Myself It Would Be This, Never Underestimate Me, You Really Can’t Judge Me By My Cover. The Happiest Place For Me In The World Is Somewhere Hidden Away In A Forgotten Place In Europe With Mountains And Lakes Near By. I’ll Build A Small House Out Of Wood And Sit By The Window Everyday On The Sewing Machine Looking Out Into The World.

My Likes:

Skinniness. Pale Skin. Water. Fruit. Smoothies. Ill Looking. Candles. Skinny Legs With Big Boots. Quietness. Shyness. The City. Animals. Change. People With Style. The Colours Black, Grey And Dark Blue. Countryside. Going For Walks Where No One Else Goes. Pokémon. Frost. People Who Can Really Make Me Laugh. Piercings. Challenging Myself. Bubble Baths. Make-Up. Shopping. Grape Bubblegum. Clever People. Intoxication. The Sky At Night. The Sun Setting Over The Sea. The Freezing Cold. Being Alone With My Thoughts. Music. Getting Drunk. Parties. Being With Those I Love. Storms. Learning. Hair. Kissing In The Rain. Drawing. Beauty. Photography. Adrenaline. Rollercoasters. Certain Smells That I Can’t Describe. Exercise. Fashion. Blood. Meeting New People. Helping Others. Being Cold. The Feeling Of Hunger. Horror. Perfection.

My Dislikes:

Fatty/Junk Foods. Wasting Time. Backstabbing. Meat Eaters (Not All, Just Those That Are Insensitive, Greedy & Deluded). Ignorance. Departure. People Who Copy. Rudeness. Heartbreak. People With No Manners. Being Forced To Do Something You Don’t Want To. Greedy People. Delusion. Arrogant People. Feeling Ugly. Laziness. Staying In Bed. Sitting Still. Runny Foods. Low Mood. Cuss Words Being Used In Every Sentence. People Who Make Fun Of Others. Regret. Lending Things And Never Getting Them Back. Shallowness. Animal Testing. Moodiness. Any Animal In A Cage. Stereotyping. People With No Respect. Slutty People. Junk Mail. Being Prank Called. Feeling Full. The Sound Of Television When It’s Not Being Watched. Being Let Down. Being Forgotten About. Forgetting Something You Were Going To Say Or Something Really Obvious. Losing Things. The Heat. Feeling Like An Outcast. Attention Seeking. Big Crowds. Claustrophobia. Being Misunderstood. Getting Butterflies.

Diagnoses:

BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder), Anorexia, OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), Depression, Social Anxiety, Insomnia.

Treatment (Ineffective):

Psychotherapy (4 Years), CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy), Drug Counseling (From Home), Eating Specialist, DBT (Dialectical Behaviour Therapy/Group Therapy), Hypnotherapy.

Pills (Taken Over A 4 Year Period, Kept Changing):

Fluvoxamine, Sertraline, Fluoxetine, Citalopram.